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[Mar. 21st, 2005|10:59 pm] |
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fuck el jay cuts. that picture is too fun.
i miss my party. that was a fun time, ohhh man....
thats chuckie pissing out my window and jz about to slap his ass, or at least thats what im told |
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[Mar. 21st, 2005|11:18 am] |
 | You scored as Buddhism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already.
In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth.
Buddhism | | 100% | Christianity | | 83% | agnosticism | | 79% | Paganism | | 71% | Islam | | 46% | Hinduism | | 42% | Judaism | | 21% | Satanism | | 17% | atheism | | 0% | </td>
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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Yea that's pretty accurate. I have always thought my beliefs were most closely related to buddhism. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2005|09:26 pm] |
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The Liberal Beauty
You scored 82 looks, 86 personality, 28 politics, and 91 sex drive! |
You're beautiful, you have a great personality, and youre highly sexual. You're a liberal with your views and you don't put morals before everything. You're probably a great wife or girlfriend, and you know how to make sure that the ones you love are happy. You're probably fun in a conversation and I'm sure that you are as loveable as you are beautiful.
Don't Forget to Take My Other 2 Tests
The Music (Rock That Is) Test
http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=8460139144648302003
The One Question Test
http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=10194224782000446693 |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 23% on Appearance |
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You scored higher than 60% on Personality |
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You scored higher than 7% on Beliefs |
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You scored higher than 86% on Sexuality |
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I am Susan Surandon?
Apparently I got less points for politics because I am more liberal than conservative. And apparently I'm extremely horny. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2005|07:02 pm] |
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| | Atreyu! - Ain't love grand | ] |
Maybe you guys can help me decide..... in June I am going to get either my
a) eyebrow
b) lip (on the left side)
c) nose
d) labret
e) monroe/madonna/beauty spot whatever people call it these days
pierced. Which one would look best on me? Or if you don't know what I look like which one is just the best one? Hmmm.... |
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[Mar. 20th, 2005|04:21 pm] |
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| | dead kennedys - holiday in cambodia | ] |
A couple surveys, and a couple quizzes, cuz I'm bored as fuck.
( Read more... )
Well those were fun I guess. More fun then doing what I should be doing (homework).
Well my weekend was very good though. Mark spent the night friday and left at like 8 30 in the morning Saturday. AHH. And then I played the sims until 5 pm when I went to Jackie's. Spent the night there with her and Blythe. That was also good. I was happy to hang out with them since I haven't in forever. I used to like live at Jackie's house lol.
For some reason as soon as I got home I got pissed off as hell at like everything. But now I just feel like I hate everything and everyone, I sound like some kind of hardcore loser but oh well. I don't know how to explain it. I just feel contempt for everyone. I haven't felt like this in a while. It's at the most random time too, because I had a pretty good weekend and hung out with some of my favorite people, but now all of a sudden I just have a really strong urge to beat the shit out of everyone I see. I guess you could just say I'm aggravated. Woo, that's an el jay mood I can use. ha but yea. I don't know. I said I don't know like seven times already so I'm going to stop rambling about how I'm not happy. People are just dumb. That's all there is to it. Everyone, not anyone in particular. |
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[Mar. 17th, 2005|11:05 am] |
I can't talk! My voice is almost totally gone! Ahhhh...
So today in first hour we watched a movie.
In second hour we did some work and then talked about the school closing.
In third hour we talked about the school closing.
In fourth hour [now] we just typed letters about the school closing.
And I don't feel like going to track today cuz I'm so sick, but I gotta, I'm gonna have to try not to die.
I can't talkkk! I can't yell! I can barely whisper. It sucks.
Silly laryngitus. And I defninately spelled that wrong. |
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[Mar. 16th, 2005|10:55 pm] |
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So I love how my dad has been living down south for so long that when he called he said "ya'll" like five times. Wow. That was scary, but funny.
I'm trying to look on the bright side of things, at least if I go to public school I can finally get my nose pierced. I'd rather stay at St Clement but I'm trying to think of positive things lol. Or maybe my eyebrow. Or lip. Most likely my nose though.
I love how I am never going to get my ears pierced.
My 3 week headache is still going strong. AWESOME. I love waking up with headaches everyday. It's sweet.
I am sore as fuck from track. But I love it lol. My legs hurt like hell, but it's good. At least I know it's working.
I love how I went to practice even though I have a really bad cold and I'm losing my voice and can't breathe that good, but eh, I'll live as always.
I can't wait til we can finally get to practice on centerline's track because I haaaaaaaate practicing inside and in the stupid parking lot. Or on the sidewalks. I heard coach mike say we might get to by friday... so hopefully....
ONE MONTH AND ONE DAY TIL I SEE MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE BITCHES!!! I'm already excited as hell. This will be my THIRD time seeing them 8-)
Today was ALMOST awesome. Mark was going to come over, but my mom decided to be selfish, although I can't really blame her I guess. I just wish I could drive...
And I really need to stop being so sarcastic. Lol.
But this entry was kind of random so I'm done rambling now. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2005|03:44 pm] |
my school is fucking closing..
st clement cant close! i only have 2 years left
this is awful. where the fuck am i gonna go to school next year? my mom decided i cant go to public school
because she is a bitch.
but whatever. ill have to talk my way out of this one. apparently my choices are:
tawas
virginia
but as i just said, im sure ill be able to talk my way out of it. i am not letting my family move me against my will to places that far. at the very worst i will end up going to some annoying school like regina or something. which id really rather not, but i suppose thats better than living 10 hours away. |
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[Mar. 14th, 2005|07:17 pm] |
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Today was my first track practice of the season. It hurt so good! I love how digustingly out of shape I am. It's sweet. But I decided I am going to drink nothing but water and only eat when I'm really hungry. I know that doesn't sound like much of a diet, but for me it is, so hopefully I finally get some results? My goal weight is 120. That's really far to go. But maybe I can at least get to 130? And I'd like to be able to fit into a size 7 in junior girls. Maybe even 5 after a while. I can't expect to fit into a 3 like Justin lol. I don't plan on working out or excersising or anything besides track practices.
But yea,
does anyone happen to know who is the opening act for tbs/jew april 11?
and for that matter, does anyone know who is opening up for msi april 17?
I am hoping it's someone I like, or at least have heard of. But I have absolutely not half a clue who's opening up
This is sorta a random post but I'm sorry. I don't have anything better to do then post. Well actually I should be doing homework but I'm too cool to.
Sometimes I honestly think I am bi-polar, even if it's just a little. I don't know. I guess not really. I'm just a stereotypical teenager I guess. Happy one minute, hyper the next, sad the next, depressed the next. It's sort of annoying but I guess I'll grow out of it. I just said I guess like 500x and I really sound like Joe. |
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[Mar. 14th, 2005|04:10 pm] |
I love how people post anonymous comments in my journal?
I also love how I have a pounding headache and I have to run today.
I also love how since my mom is a lazy douche bag I never get to see Mark.
I also, (this is the last one, don't worry) love how I failed my anatomy test today. |
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[Mar. 12th, 2005|12:04 am] |
Holy fuck
That's the hardest core I've ever been at a show. Usually I just stand back and you know, stay away from the crowd. but definately not at this show! ohh man, i feel cool.
I actually got my ass into the pit twice [although it was more by force than by choice, it still counts]
I <3 my bruises. they make me feel pretty hardcore. and i love how the inside of my mouth randomly bleeds cuz i got punched in the jaw.
and you know, honestly, there wasnt all that big of a different between the pit and the crowd at some points.
Killswitch engage was sweet, i hadn't heard them before really, ill have to buy their cd soon
The used was good
I almost fucking pissed myself during mcr. I haven't gotten that excited for a band in a while. i love them
Quinn and Bert kissed [AWWW]
and quinn busted out with his jamz and rapped
bert made fun of some wigger there, it was pretty damn funny.
i love how i get complimented for my belt all the time. i am in love with my belt, seriously. its fucking sweet.
i saw justin baginski there, im pretty sure he didnt remember me but i said hi anyway, i saw keri and claire. i saw justin zajdel too.
i got mooned by some weirdo guys. i called them silly and their response was pulling down their pants.
and i dont feel like updating about the atreyu show like i said i was going to, because i dont really remmeber anything from it, because too many crowd surfers kicked me in the head. i have no memory. or hearing for that matter. bye
OH OH OH OH
AND
i got a sticker that has a picture of a sheep and says 'fake is better-- im no sweater!!' |
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[Mar. 11th, 2005|02:15 am] |
Well, Justin got here at like 445. We didn't leave til like 530 cuz my moms a dumbass and I'm a 15 year old so I don't have a license or a car, because I"m a loser, but then we picked up DANI and went off to clutch cargoes.
Atreyu was fucking amazing OBVIOUSLY.
Norma Jean, I never really listened to them before, but now I'm definately going to, they put on a great show too. Unearth was great too, and I wasn't really getting into scars of tomorrow because I had just got there and I was tired at first so, but they were still pretty good
I love how I seriously saw like over 20 people that I know. I felt cool.
I'm not going into detail though because its fucking 215 am and i have to wake up in like less than 5 hours
I will definately make a longer post when I get home from school, no wait, I have to go to taste of chaos like right after school. I'll make a post during 4th hour tomorrow [technically today lol] or like after I get back from seeing the used and my chemical romance, woooo.
WOOO |
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[Mar. 10th, 2005|07:27 am] |
When you make certain realizations, nothing really seems to matter at all anymore. And you realize all along you've been putting your priorities in the WRONG fucking order. I'm not going to complain about what's going on right now, because I don't want pity, I'm not trying to sound stupid or anything I just have been ranting in my el jay all the time recently. So right now all I want to say is that I hate the fact that is takes something absolutely fucking HORRIBLE to happen, to make people get their shit straight. Of course, I know, there's exceptions, some people know what's going on, maybe they were like born that way. But either way, all I know, is I hate the fact that the only time I think about what's really important to me is when something fucking horrible happens. It's disgusting. I'm disgusting. It's sick. And I hate this more than anything. Nothing has made me this upset, really, well, I've been this upset maybe once before. And it was for the same reason I am now but for a different reason. If you want to know what I'm talking about that bad, I suppose you could IM me, or comment or something, but right now I don't feel like emptying my heart into my el jay, because, well, I don't feel like it.
But, on a happier note, I do get to see one of my favorite bands today, ATREYU! And tomorrow I get to see My Chemical Romance, A static lullaby, and the Used. And Saturday I finallllllllyyyy get to see mark, And I miss him a lot right now. I also get to waste all my money in the stores in royal oak.
And my mom wonders why I spend so much time with my friends. Why I'm constantly out of the house, or have people over. I'm trying to get the fuck away from what makes me upset. It's almost like I'm too afraid to see... I don't even want to look... I want to pretend it's not real. I don't know if that makes sense. But I'm pretty all you that know me know I tend to run away from my problems. THAT's why I'm always either at school [well i have to go there anyway either way, lol], people are always over, or im at a concert, or im in royal oak, or im walking outside. I can't be here. I can't take it. And this time, I'm not talking about my mom and sister being bitches. This is way worse. If my mom and sister being bitches to me would make what is happening stop, I would gladly except it with a fucking smile. If anything could make it stop, I'd do it. But I don't have that fucking power because I am a useless human being and I can't do a shit about anything. My pathetic little life is too unimportant. The things that usually upset me have no meaning at all right now. I don't give a shit that I'm fat. I'm ugly too, who fucking cares! My grades could be higher, I don't fucking care. It's not important. I didn't get the CD that I wanted to buy, its not important!!!! My mom is a bitch to me almost all the time. I'll get over it. I get beat up by a 10 year old cuz I'm a pussy. I don't care. It's not something I should be complaining about. Not when there are far worse things going on. I hate the fact I can never realize what is important and what is not except when I [feel like] I am dying, someone else is dying, something really scary and traumitizing happens. I HATE THIS SHIT! I DON'T WANT TO BE ANYWHERE! I don't want to be here, I don't want to be gone, I don't want to be anywhere. No, I'm not going to kill myself, I hate people who do that, well not really hate, I just think it's selfish as fuck and you don't give a shit about your family or friends if you kill yourself. I'm sorry but it's true. Suicide is totally pointless. But that's a totally different rant I could go on about so I'm going to go now because I'm getting totally off topic.
And I just realized it's like 7:30 and I haven't even gotten dressed yet so I'm probably going to be late for school but that's okay. I randomly decided I needed to complain in my journal again. |
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[Mar. 9th, 2005|05:57 pm] |
So today was pretty sweet for the most part
Dani/Kelli/Andrew came to pick me up from school
We went to FASHIONABLE FERNDALE and bought some hardcore tickets. I GOT MY MSI TICKET IN MY HAND. Well no, that's a lie, its on top of my computer. My hands are on my keyboard
fucking train stopped on the track when i had to TAKE A PISS
i held my pee for 2 hours
But I was excited to see dani kelli and andrew, esp dani cuz i havent seen her in like 2384 years
THAT HOT BITCH IS GOING TO ATREYU TOMORROW! I GET TO SEE HER AGAIN.
So if fuckin cher calls my house again I'm going to be pissed. I NEED SLEEP TONIGHT. i have a crazy next couple days
atreyu, taste of chaos the next day, ohhh man.
i miss mark pretty hardcore-ly. :( I hate having to go so long without seeing him
which reminds me that i need to drive, which reminds me.. stefania lets take segment II soon okay!
Well thats my fun post for today.
my room kinda smells bad. i dont like it. maybe i should clean it or something.
soo woooo. tomorrow = atreyu. friday = taste of chaos. saturday = royal oak [WOO i actually have money to buy stuff this time]
I'm in a great mood today for the first time in foreverrr..... which is weird, you'd think I'd be pissed off after waiting at a train for 2 hours. idk i just feel, content. no, more than content. idk how to explain it. i feel like everything in my life is just completely perfect right now. that sounds kinda corny but its really how i feel right now, idk, its good though, im not gonna complain
weak emo boys: I can't wait man
weak emo boys: i'm realllly excited
mindles indlgnce: me tooo
mindles indlgnce: im like peeing everywhere
weak emo boys: wow
weak emo boys: you should see a doctor about that |
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[Mar. 9th, 2005|07:19 am] |
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[Mar. 7th, 2005|04:41 pm] |
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| | the used - sound effects and overdramatics | ] |
Track starts in one week
My bellybutton has been pierced for one month and two weeks
3 days til Atreyu
4 days til the used
35 days til taking back sunday
40 days til mindless self indulgence
School was boring today, as it is every single other day.
well,
on april 12, MSI IS RELEASING A NEW CD
THE FIRST STUDIO RECORDING IN 5 YEARS!!!!! Holy shit, I could like... piss myself right now. You can bet I will buy that bitch the day it comes out
They have a song called "What do they know" on their myspace profile. And I can, with my expert knowledge, assume that thats on their new cd, since it has not been realeased before. Although msi does tend to make random songs and not put them on cds. but either way. They also have HIGH QUALIty version of capitol p. all the other times ive heard that song it was crappy recordings from like 80's tape decks fans took to concerts and recorded it.
Mindless Self Indulgence, have entered the recording studio this month to make their first studio record since "Frankenstein Girls Will Seem Strangely Sexy"(2000). It will be produced and arranged by Urine & Galus. Machine, who's worked with Lamb Of God, Hed (pe), King Crimson, Fear Factory, Pitchshifter etc, will be recording and mixing the NYC based electropunks. The release is tentatively slated for an April 2005 through a cooperative effort by electronic indie label, Metropolis Records & MSI's own, Uppity Cracker Recording label.
i seriously love how i go through so many changes in the music i listen to. each day i have new favorite bands. but msi is the only exception. msi is the only band that has held my attention the past 3 years |
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